Ang Bato sa Dalampasigan

Maraming bato sa dalampasigan, may iba't ibang hugis at kulay. May magaspang at may makinis, may maliit at may malaki, may magaan at may mabigat.

Tulad ng tao. Iba-iba ang itsura, iba-iba ang pinagmulan, iba-iba ang pagkatao, at iba-iba ang pinagdadaanan. Tulad mo, tulad ko, tulad natin.

Sa pag-alon ng dagat, unti-unting naiipon ang maraming bato sa dalampasigan. Nag-aantay, nag-aabang, na baka sakali, sya ay mapipili, sa kabila ng iba pang tulad nya sa kanyang paligid. 

Parang ako, parang ikaw, patuloy na nag-aantay, patuloy na nag-aabang.

Ilang tao ang dadaan, ilang panahon ang lilipas, ngunit walang nakakapansin, walang nakakamalay. Na sa gitna ng marami ay may isang natatangi. Ngunit sinong makaaalam..

Parang ako, parang ikaw, hindi pa rin nasusumpungan.

Minsan, aanurin ka ng dagat at sa ibang lugar mapapadpad. Minsan mararamdaman mo kung gano ka mag-isa. Pero walang makakapansin, walang makakapuna.

Parang ako, parang ikaw, lumuluha ng tahimik, humihikbi ng walang tinig.

Minsan pakiramdam mo para kang malulunod, sa lungkot ng sakit at pag-iisa. 

Parang ako, parang ikaw, parang tayo.

Patuloy na aalon ang dagat kung panong patuloy na iikot ang mundo. Magpapatuloy ang buhay..

Para sa kin..

Para sa'yo.

Now I Understand Why

Twelve years back, I almost wanted to trade everything just to forget "my worst relationship ever" and "my first heartbreak ever". The pain that that relationship caused me is beyond words. But time heals all wounds, and who am I not to forgive. I decided to let go and let God. 

My journey continued, and along the way I allowed some individuals to enter my world. However, failed relationship followed another until I got tired of believing in "happy ever after". Each of those failed relationship embedded deep cuts and painful wounds leaving me almost nothing but an empty heart. I gave up on love. But love didn't.

Who would have thought that after 12 long years, our roads will cross again. And it never occurred to me that you could rekindle so easily everything I thought were already gone.

I almost lost the tune, but now you make me hear the music again.

I came to that point in my life wherein I was about to believe that love and relationship wasn't really meant for me. But God never fails to amaze me. Now I realized why it didn't work out with anyone else. Because everything that happened to me, lead me back to where I truly belong.

What to do now?

Lost in an illusion
Believed in a blackhole..
What we have is simply just
A make believe 
With no meaning at all.

I must admit I lose control
Guarding my heart 
Wasn't just my cup of tea
Staring blankly on my wooden wall
Singing to my self, let it go, let it go.

Knowing right from the start
There's actually no beginning to start with
Unknowingly I risked myself from falling
Now that I fall 
I fall so deep.

When...

When,
I found myself smiling
with just the thoughts of you...

When,
I caught myself
discreetly taking a glimpse of you

When I started to feel
that my heart skips a beat
when someone says your name

The red light is blinking,
The alarms are resounding,
Reminding...

JOURNEY OF THE HEART - DECEMBER 2013 (Part 12 of 12)

December 1

Pondering on this: 

"How am I keeping awake for the coming of the Lord?

If the Lord comes now, what kind of heart will he find in me?" 

--Bishop Luis Antonio Tagle

December 4

I wish that things had been different.. but it wasn't.. T_T

buti na lang nakapagpreno ako..

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God is working things out for you, even when you don't feel it. Have faith and be thankful.

December 6

why do I have this feeling na malapit ka na?..  ^_^

December 7

idaan daw ba sa kantahan?

HIM:

more than words

best in me

kailangan kita

evergreen

vs.

HER:

bakit ba ganyan

awit ng saya

torete

we could be in love

what a day! ^_^

December 8

All things happen in God's perfect time.

December 11

minsan talaga may mga taong mahirap ispelengin (or espelengin, whatever is appropriate :P)

pag sineryoso mo.. sakit lng sa bangs.. 

next time tlga may limit k n s kn.. kala mo!

December 12

simple things means a lot.. i didnt expect that i'll end this day with a smile.. thanks for a great time today!

December 16

isang araw, bigla ka na lang darating.. dun sa araw na hindi ko man inaasahan, pero alam kong sobrang ikatutuwa ko..  

nararamdaman ko.. malapit na!..

December 17

tamang sound trip ng opm christmas songs.. 

habang nagmumuni-muni sa mga kaganapan sa loob ng isang taon.. 

dami na palang nangyari... 

sadyang ikaw na lang ang hindi pa.. :P

December 22

there's so much to be thankful for.. love you Papa God! 

December 23

Romans 12:9: "Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good."

December 24

TRUE LOVE WAITS

I was the typical hopeless romantic - inlove sa idea ng love; isang certified emotera. Sabi nga nila dati, ako yung may malaking puso sa harap dahil ang buhay ko ay umiikot sa "love". Basta ok ang love life, kering-keri ko ang kahit ano, kahit gano ka problematic ang ibang aspeto ng buhay ko. Pero pag lovelife ang sira.. asahan mo.. good luck na ang iba pa.

But that was before. Pag nagkakaidad na at dumadami na ang mga nangyari sa buhay, nag-iiba din pala talaga ang pananaw sa mga bagay-bagay. Ngayon, kung kelan nasa marrying age na daw ako saka ako deadma lang kung ano na ba mangyayari sa kin - kung mag-aasawa ba ako o hindi. Para kasing kontento na ako sa kung anong meron ako ngayon - single at hindi komplikado ang buhay. Though there were times na sobrang I missed having a company of someone, yet dahil sa mga friendship sa paligid, natatabunan din yun kalaunan.

Minsan, nagiging impatient ako. Pero dahil sobrang love ako ni God, He speaks through my heart, minsan through the persons or things that surrounds me. Parang nung isang araw, someone reminded me about my cover photo sa FB. Hanggat hindi daw ako decided to pursue singlehood (or ang pagmamadre to be specific) wag ko daw muna papalitan yung cover photo ko. Pero pag nakita nya daw na naging cloud na yun, alam na nya kung ano pinili ko. 

Sabi ng nabasa ko, "all the the wrongs persons you've met along the way leads you one step closer to the right one." And I believe this one. I pray that God will fulfill the desires of my heart. Alam ko minsan nagiging impatient ako or nagdoubt if He will grant my prayers. Pero pag nahihimasmasan, I remind myself that when I decided to surrender everything back to the Lord that includes the stubborn heart of mine, and Sya na ang bahala gumalaw at magmaneho sa buhay ko. Matagal ko yun pinagkait sa Kanya pero now in complete surrender, I'm letting God's will happen in my life.

True love waits. At kung sino ka man, excited na kong dumating ka sa buhay ko.

December 25

hmmm.. dami ko pala ka emoterahan sa taon na 'to.. hehe..  But above all the drama, I can say that 2013 is a blessed year for me.. I was completely healed after a year of medication, I've met new friends, I reconnected with the old ones, I've got a great job and wonderful colleagues at work, I've reconciled with those who had caused me pain and vice versa, and I was finally able to let go and let God rule in my heart..  Thank you Lord for such a great year! I pray that 2014 would be a greater one! 

December 28

someday, I'll watch the sunset again... with someone I can call my forever..

December 29

Before you ask God for a great man, BECOME a great woman. Make sure you're ready for love before you ask for it!!! (repost)

December 31

Inspired by Bo Sanchez' article, I ask myself this question:

"IF I HAD ONLY 12 MONTHS TO LIVE, HOW WILL I LIVE?"

and my answer? 

that would be my journey for the coming 2014.. 

JOURNEY OF THE HEART - NOVEMBER 2013 (Part 11 of 12)

November 2

God uses broken things beautifully.

Broken clouds pour rain;

Broken soil sets as field;

Broken crop yields seed;

Broken seed gives life to a new plant.

In any hard situation, if we feel we are broken,

God may be planning to utilize us for some great cause.

I'm ready! ^_^

One day you'll meet someone who doesn't care about your past because they want to be with you in your future.

November 3

Lord, write Your will in my heart..

November 7

bawi ang puyat! sarap ng tulog, sarap din ng gising! at may bonus pa..! Thank you Lord!

November 8

wondering why...

If its meant to be, things will always fall in place at the right time.

nabasa sa papel na napulot sa daan:

bakit nga ba kailangang laging komplikado ang love, kung hindi committed na, age gap, ayaw ng magulang o kaya naman religion ang issue.. ang hirap naman hanapin ng right one na yan!

November 10

mag-ex nagkachat:

girl: wala kang magawa noh?

boy: bakit naman?

girl: bigla ka nagparamdam eh

boy: bakit hinahanap mu b aq?

girl: hindi naman.. 

alam ko naman kung nasan ka eh

boy: nasan? dyan pa rin ba sa puso mo? hehe..

girl: patawa!

hindi!

nasa puso na ng iba..

boy: aq or ikaw ang nasa puso na ng iba?

girl: ikaw ang nasa puso na ng iba

boy: panu mangyayari un e aq ung the man who can't be moved

BOOM!

#pumipickuplines

why do we have to love someone we cannot have?..  :(

For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, ''It might have been''.

Love that we can not have 

is the one that last the longest, 

hurts the deepest and feels the strongest.

November 14

thank you!

1 John 4:18-19 "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us."

Psalm 40:8 “I desire to do your will, my God; your law is within my heart.”

November 15

so many questions but the answers are so few..

Never assume. Don't expect. Just hope... - Punit Ghadge.

November 18

it's a very tough decision, just like choosing a less traveled road.. yet I am happy and my heart is at peace..

We will fall in love for the right reasons, to the right person. When that time comes, that love will be worth the long wait, the tears and the pain. Right then we will forget we ever cried.

November 20

isang dapit-hapon

kasabay ng paglubog ng araw

sa dating tagpuan

apat na taon na ang nakaraan..

ala-ala ng kahapon,

ika mo nga

ala-ala na lamang

pagkat wala na

wag ng maghinagpis

wag ng magdamdam

palayain na ang pusong

tinanikala ng nakaraan

nakaraa'y tapos na

sa kasalukuya'y mamuhay na 

kanya-kanyang buhay

atin ng panghawakan

kung ito'y iyong mababasa

nais kong iyong malaman

hangad ko'y iyong kaligayahan

kahit nasan ka pa man.

tara laro tayo ng taguan..

taguan ng feelings!

November 21

Lord, in the ups and downs of my life, 

I thank you for making me feel 

that I am not alone in this journey. 

Thank you for tolerating my tantrums 

when things are not happening 

the way I wanted it to be. 

Thank you for spoiling me with your blessings 

through the simplest of things 

that you know I enjoy the most. 

You patiently listen 

to my complaints and frustrations 

and pacifies me with your unconditional love.

Though I am stubborn at times,

You never get tired of making me understand

That Your will is better than mine.

My heart is grateful

It overflows with joy.

Your love is so great

I could not ask for more.

November 22

Para akong balloon... 

Pag ako pinakawalan mo,

Hanggang tanaw ka na lang!

November 24

Nabasa sa papel na napulot sa daan:

"Paasa lang ba talaga sya o sadyang assumera ka lang?"

wahaahaha.. boom!

November 25

completely puzzled..

November 26

Someday you'll meet someone who doesn't care about your past because they want to be with you in the future.

November 29

a year ago, I told myself na gusto ko munang manahimik ang puso ko sa loob ng isang taon..

1 year passed - no suitors.. no boyfriend --- CHECK! 

(pero crush - meron.. :P)

3 months ago I set a goal to loose weight.. 

result: 5 kilos less --- CHECK!

(and still loosing more.. )

Napatunayan ko na once I really wanted something, gagawin ko lahat para magawa ko iyon..

Now, I'm ready to face another challenge..

this time, no time limits.. 

just a patient heart and an empty hand 

willing to wait for my God's Gift..

alam nyo na yun!.. 

#truelovewaits

November 30

Every year, a new chapter unfolds when November arrives; it always marks a start of something new in my life - it opens doors for new beginnings and opportunities. This year, thank you November for being so good to me. I'm welcoming December with a warm embrace! ^_^

JOURNEY OF THE HEART - OCTOBER 2013 (Part 10 of 12)

October 1

"Angels can fly because they take themselves so lightly." --Zen Proverb

Live + Love + Laugh

Have a blessed day everyone!

October 3

"Coins make sound but paper bills don't.

So when our value increases, keep silent and maintain a thankful and humble heart."

Isang mapagpalang umaga sa lahat!

October 5

RP: yung tipong feel na feel mo type ka nya tapos biglang yun pala assuming ka lang! 

October 10

“There are some people who meet that somebody that they can

never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn’t expect you to understand that, oer even believe it, but trust me, there are some love that don’t go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever.”

— Ally Mc Beal

October 19

just came across with this caption while browsing my FB wall:

ALONE BUT NOT LONELY!

kagabi p ko nagrereflect regarding singlehood ahahaha.. 

bitter pa ba or unsweetened lang.. 

gandang morning.. off to work!

October 26

After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesn't mean possession and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build your roads today, because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have worth. And you learn . . .and you learn . . .

-- Ritu Ghatourey

October 28

Make your anger so expensive, no one can afford it.

And your happiness so cheap, that most can get it for free.

October 29

“She wasnt exactly sure when it happened. Or even when it started. All she knew for sure was that right here and now, she was falling hard and she could only pray that he was feeling the same way.” 

― Nicholas Sparks, Safe Haven

LSS: ♪♫ I set out on a narrow way Many years ago

Hopin' I would find true love Along the broken road

But I got lost a time or two 

I wiped my brow Kept pushin' through 

I couldn't see how every sign

Pointed straight to YOU ♪♫

It's amazing how one word from the right person can turn your whole day around and make you feel better in a second!

And we put a fake smile to hide the pain, yet we wish someone would look closely enough and see how broken we really are inside.

may mga pagkakataon talaga na masasabi mo sa sarili mo na.. SAYANG!

“We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems—the ones that make you truly who you are—that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person—someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have.”

I will find that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way.

Let our scars fall in love.” 

― Galway Kinnell

simple lang buhay ko..walang labis... ikaw na lang ang kulang..

October 30

dreams are manifestations of the subconcious 

brought about by an intense heart's desire..

only then i realize the power of this feeling..

now you're not just invading my reality.. 

you're also captivating my fantasy..

#dreamingofyou

October 31

burying my heart again..

#sumasabaysaundas #emotera #brokenhearted

Sometimes as much as you want certain things to happen, its just not meant to be! God has another plan for you.

Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya. - Bob Ong

Wag kang paasa! Un lang un eh.. Pasweet-sweet ka sa tao pero para sayo wala lang yun, eh ano sa tingin mo nararamdaman nung kabilang kampo? Hindi mo namamalayan nahuhulog na pala sya sayo. Simple lang, kung kaibigan lang ang turing mo kanya, umasta ka bilang kaibigan. Para wala kang masasaktan at bibigyan ng problema.

JOURNEY OF THE HEART - September 2013 (Part 9 of 12)

September 5

is this what i want? is this what i deserve?

September 8

I asked myself

What's my driving force when everything else failed?

Then I realized, I forgot the most basic..

my DREAMS..

Si Papa God tlaga oh, alam na alam kung kelan at paano ako papasayahin! Thank you po!!! ^_^

"Everyone has their own robin - the person that you loved very much, but you cannot be with.. and whoever you'll met, whatever you'll do..nothing will be like it would be with robin.." --How I Met your Mother

September 10

Ang PUSO parang PARACHUTE..

effective kapag NAKABUKAS! 

September 16

Wonderful three decades, 30 years, 360 months, 10,957.3 days, 262,975.2 hours, 15,778,512 minutes, 946,710,720 seconds of my life. Thank you Lord for everything!

September 18

I wish I can go back to the time when the only man in my life was my dad. My only best friend was my mom. And any wounds can be healed by just a band-aid and a lollipop.

haist.. wish i could turn back time..

September 24

RP: I never wished for a happy ever after. All I ever dreamed of is a love that's true, not a fairytale.

September 28

RP: "We all have our 'good old days' tucked away inside our hearts, and we return to them in daydreams like cats to favorite armchairs."

September 29

kung pwede lang..

I claim it! God is preparing something good for me.. 

JOURNEY OF THE HEART - August 2013 (Part 8 of 12)

August 4

nakakabinging katahimikan.. 

sino ang makakabasag?..

walang hanggang paghihintay..

kailan matutuldukan?..

August 6

Lord, please give me the grace of patience, wisdom and strength.

August 12

Lord, help me to have a child-like heart..

August 15

Psalm 19:14 "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer."

August 18

Lord this is something beyond my capacities, I lift it up to you.. thy will be done!

August 20 

dumarating din pala sa point na mararamdaman mong wala na..

kung kailan yun?

yun ang mahirap sagutin...

pasasaan ba't darating din ang pagkakataon na yun..

tiwala lang!

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time heals all wounds..

in God's perfect timing, I know all my heart's desires will be fulfilled..

and it's not that far from where i am now 

nor too long from this moment... 

i can feel it.. ^_^

August 24

ikaw na! ikaw na talaga!

i need u now.. as in now na...

August 26

"I write to empty my mind and to fill my heart." --Paulo Coelho

August 31

dull..

tarnished..

faded..

that's what it is right now...

a symbol..

a reminder..

a promise..

that ended..

tarnished..

faded..

it doesn't fit anymore..

no matter how hard i try..

just like this feeling..

faded..

memories are flowing..

i smiled..

i cried..

JOURNEY OF THE HEART - JULY 2013 (Part 7 of 12)

July 3

Do you INSPIRE or do you DISCOURAGE?

I hope everyone would be the first.. 

have a blessed day!

July 4

embracing God's love!  ^_^

for the nth time God never failed to amaze me.. thank you po Lord, swak ka lagi sa balde.. ^_^

is singing my heart out:

♫ "Huwag mangamba, huwag mabalisa, huwag mabahala 

Sa ligalig, hindi kita padarakma 

Manalig ka, magtiwala at mapayapa 

Pag-ibig kong kalasag mo’y sapat na" ♪♫♪

July 9

and everything started with, "YOU ARE LOVED!"

everything will be alright.. God is with us..

July 12

Stop holding on to what hurts and make room for what feels good.

July 14

I observed that those difficult persons we encounter everyday are those persons who are actually having difficult times in their personal lives..

and often times, it is easier for us to judge them than to understand what they are going through..

just a thought..

July 20

I share everything about my life to Jesus and Mary; all my happiness and heartaches, my achievements and failures. I just realized this morning that they also share their lives to me: their joys and sorrows, their ministry and glory..

how?

whenever I pray the rosary.. 

July 22

prayer + service 

“they are not two opposing attitudes but, on the contrary both are two aspects essential to our Christian life aspects that should never be separated, but lived in profound unity and harmony.” --Pope Francis

can't help but to smile whenever I recall what you said and how you said it.. 

utang na loob...

ayokong kiligin.. hahahah!.. :P

July 27

♫♪Someone who feels for me

Who's constantly inlove with me

And cares for me

Someone who won't say goodbye

Someone who can change my life

I hope its you, I hope its you ♫♪♥