I am sleepless.. I don't know why.. I'm tired the whole day because of never ending paper.. timesheets.. reports.. hard individuals at work.. yet.. I just want to savor this reality at my hand. Before, I used to dream.. that someday.. I will able to find the person i could truly share this wonderful thing called love. A relationship with a person that grows more and more each and everyday. A relationship that is not just based on strong emotions but is wrapped with commitment, trust, understanding and honesty. A person whom I can share my ambitions, hopes, despairs, frustrations, everything about me and my life. A relationship that is not just about me and him but is centered with serving God. A true love that everyone is wishing for. Yes, I may sound idealistic.. and I know there is no such thing as perfect relationship or perfect lover, but deep in my heart I was hoping and praying for this.
Maybe, God heard all my pleas. He knows my heart since then. My failures and frustrations, my desires and hopes. I was about to give up my dreams, staring to believe that I will continue my life in solitude. But He never wanted me to be alone. He designed everything in such a way that when He finally give that person, I am the kind of person I have to be. Those past failures taught and molded me to be a better person for myself and for that someone. Now, it doesn't matter how long I have waited nor how painful I have been through. What matters now is finally, I am embracing my greatest gift. God's timing is perfect. Now, my dreams are becoming a reality. And I'm so thankful for this wonderful gift.
