Sabi-sabi sa tabi-tabi ni Tutubi: Topic #3 KILIG (by aekarghe)

I just read a blog about kilig.. The title of that blog is. "Namimiss mo na bang kiligin?" The author says that she heard those statement mostly to those who are already in a relationship or married for 5 years and up. Those people are saying that they are loving but they are no longer in-love. Wala na yung kilig factor, yun bang feeling na tumatambol ang dibdib mo pag nakikita mo yung someone special mo. Yung feeling ng excitement at extraordinary happiness pag magkasama kayo.

Sa ngayon, marami kasi nagsasabi na pag nakikita nila ako.. kumukuti-kutitap daw ang mata ko.. palagi daw ako nakangiti.. maganda ang aura at "blooming". And even sa special someone ko, may mga ganun comments dn sa kanya. Pag magkasama kami sobrang ang saya ko. Makareceive lang ako ng text mula sa kanya napapngiti ako habang nagbabasa. Minsan naabutan nila ko na nakangiti habang nagluluto. Bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko pag nakikita ko sya.. o kahit nga marinig ko lang ang boses nya. Kinikilig ako sa mga simpleng gestures nya, yun saglit na pagpunta nya sa table ko, patagong hawak ng kamay tapos kindat bago umalis (natatawa ako habang sinusulat ko to), yung isang oras na sabay kami kakain ng lunch, yung mga saglit na tawag para mangumusta kung ok pa ba o kung nagmerienda na.. lahat ng yun.. sobrang nakakapagpakilig sa kin.. during and after each moments.. even kapag mag-isa na lang ako.

Sabi ko nga, I want  this feelings to last long.. kung pede nga.. hanggang sa tumanda na kami. Ewan ko, sana nga, kahit na umabot na kami ng ilang taon, yung love na meron kami at especially yung pinong kilig na yun na nararamdaman namin sa ngayon na naguumpisa pa lang kami... ay patuloy naming maramdaman. Naniniwala ako na may factor yung kilig na ito sa isang relasyon. And I know it's up to us on how we will keep this love burning even after 10 or 20 years. Alam ko wala imposible.. sa dalawang pusong totoong nagmamahalan.. ^_^

The One

I am sleepless.. I don't know why.. I'm tired the whole day because of never ending paper.. timesheets.. reports.. hard individuals at work.. yet.. I just want to savor this reality at my hand. Before, I used to dream.. that someday.. I will able to find the person i could truly share this wonderful thing called love. A relationship with a person that grows more and more each and everyday. A relationship that is not just based on strong emotions but is wrapped with commitment, trust, understanding and honesty. A person whom I can share my ambitions, hopes, despairs, frustrations, everything about me and my life. A relationship that is not just about me and him but is centered with serving God. A true love that everyone is wishing for. Yes, I may sound idealistic.. and I know there is no such thing as perfect relationship or perfect lover, but deep in my heart I was hoping and praying for this.

Maybe, God heard all my pleas. He knows my heart since then. My failures and frustrations, my desires and hopes. I was about to give up my dreams, staring to believe that I will continue my life in solitude. But He never wanted me to be alone. He designed everything in such a way that when He finally give that person, I am the kind of person I have to be. Those past failures taught and molded me to be a better person for myself and for that someone.  Now, it doesn't matter how long I have waited nor how painful I have been through. What matters now is finally, I  am embracing my greatest gift. God's timing is perfect. Now, my dreams are becoming a reality. And I'm so thankful for this wonderful gift.

Sabi-sabi sa Tabi-tabi ni Tutubi: Topic #2 PAGPAPAHALAGA (by aekarghe)

Matuto kang pahalagahan at alagaan ang mga bagay na importante sa'yo hanggat hawak mo pa ang mga ito.. 'wag mo itong ipagsasawalang-halaga.. tulad ng halaman na natutuyo kapag hindi nasisikatan ng araw at nadidiligan ng ulan.. anumang bagay na hindi nabibigyan ng karampatang importansya at pagpapahalaga ay unti-unti at kusang nawawala ng hindi mo namamalayan..

Magsisisi ka.. ngunit huli na.. ang hirap kasi sa tin.. masyado tayo kampante na hindi ito mawawala.. na lagi lng ito nandyan.. kya we do our own things.. neglecting those things which are more important. Then we will find ourselves angry.. kasi feeling natin na-betray tyo dahil pagbalik natin sa mga bagay na kinaligtaan natin.. wala na lahat ng yun. Without realizing na tayo mismo ang dahilan kung bakit ba sila nawala sa buhay natin.

Now.. you will fight back.. you will try to win them back.. pero huli na.. wala na sila.. san ka na tutungo ngayon? will you still fight for it.. or you will just accept your defeat.. will you hold on.. or will you let go..

Sabi-sabi sa Tabi-tabi ni Tutubi: Topic #1 HAPPINESS (by aekarghe)

1. YOU and only you is the only one responsible for your own happiness. Engage into things that you enjoy and love to do. Along the way, you will see your sense of worth and it will boost your self esteem.

2. Your happiness should not depend or rely on other person. Bakit? Kasi pag nwala yung taong yun.. wala na din yung kaligayahan mo.

3.  Happiness should come from within and should be radiated outside. Hindi bat mas masarap sa pakiramdam na nakakapagpasaya ka ng iba o nadadamay sila sa masayang aura at perspective mo sa buhay? 

4. Happiness is a choice. Minsan nagbubulagan tayo sa mga bagay na ''akala" natin.. nakakapagpasaya satin. Hindi natin namamalayan.. unti-unti na pala tayo nitong nilalamon papunta sa kadiliman ng lungkot at kawalang direksyon. May masaya bang nasasaktan? O masaya kang nasasaktan ka?

5. Have a positive outlook and attitude. Gumagaan ang kahit na anong mabigat na problema depende sa kung pano mo ito tatanggapin.

6. Smile at the world.. and the world will smile back at you. Isipin mo na kung ano ang ibinibigay mo.. yun din ang ibinabalik syo ng paligid mo.

7. Real happiness comes from God. Have a constant communication with Him. Wala syang trunkline at hindi din nagbi-busy ang linya ng langit. At higit sa lahat.. libre at unlimited pa. :)